lots of problem:
-im fat(please everyone! dun try to make me happy by saying 'Shirley, you r not fat'.coz it doesnt help. it makes me feel even worse.coz i noe im overweight. it is even stated in my report book)
-im broke,I have little money even though i worked my ass out.
-im lazy
-i have ugly hair...hahaha...i know.it sucks everyday...

im trying to lose weight n trying to lose 17 kg and please everyone dun say that 17 kg its too much coz my height is only 150cm and by losing 17kg i will only be 40 kg.which is still a normal weight for a 150cm girl.but the hardest thing about diet is (everyone should noe this) temptation of nice foods->junk foods,ice cream,sweets,chocolates and everything that make you and me fat is nice.how can i avoid them??saying 'diet is easy' is so easy.thinking of it is easy.i was just thinking 'hmm,,,detox diet is not that bad,drinking juice and eating fruits only is not that bad.I can survive that'.but doing it is soooo hard...its like everywhere i go there is temptation and there are devils.if im bored i will think of food.i think if i want to do a detox diet for 3 days...i have to stay at home for 3 days and watch movies the whole day and just drink juices and eat fruits??i dun even noe if it works...haha.SHIT!!!how can i achieve 40kg weight??some people say...dun think abt it too much...ok i'll try...maybe by doing that i won't have to stress out and when im not stress i wont think of food..heheh...


actually i have 2 exams tmr...statistic and communication.i think i can handle it...they r not that hard..hahah...ok..i think i should go off now...better wake up earlier...heheh...

black &&
PURPLE (:
6:34 AM

okay..my life now is abt problems,solving it,finding solution,studying,doing assignments,going crazy over korean BANDS,looking for a 'perfect' guy to be a friend, n lots more.that is my life in perth now...too much prblems to be handled.n when i thought the problem is going to be solved it is getting harder still...its like does not want to be solved...there are lots of things to be talked about here..but i totally forgot...i mean there is not any urgent thing i want to talk about...there are but can i say it here??

i really does not like my current homestay...the guradian is so stingy.she does not let us do this or that.sometimes offer us bread that are not to be eaten,i mean expired.the boring meal is chicken....i will become chicken some day...she differentiate me from other students....i pay more than the other students.there are many occasion when she makes me feel bad.i cant list them down....its too much...i will be typing it until morning...i do not like her...she like to say that she already treat us as her daughter...if i am her daughter i do not have to pay to stay in her hse...if i am her daughter why she gave me expired bread.if i am her daughter she will not treat me like tt...i am SOOO LUCKY bcoz IM NOT HER DAUGHTER...i even pity her children....they are pitiful...if i take a bath too long she will say don't take a bath too long the water is very expensive...hello...i took a bath once aday...ok please dun feel disgusted when u hear this..but its cold here...when i want to borrow the house phone she keeps saying that her daughter is using it....i hate it until i do not want to borrow the phone anymore...n she even ask me to pay whenever i make a call using the hse phone...hello...its only a few dollars...when i want to fry an egg she will tell me do not use too much oil..n bla bla bla.....why do i pay her 200 a week then??if i cant get anything...when i want to use the microwave she will say i just cook the food dun need to heat up the food anymore...or the microwave is not good for ur health...heellooo...why do u have a microwave den??if i take the hot water from the flask she will say do not take it it is for the baby...baby ur shit....ur family use that water too....she once accused me of taking water that i supposed to be drink by the family member only...sorry i dun take whats not mine....if she say i cant take it from there..i wont take it...n she makes lots of kind of excuses..the water is for the baby....ok..all her excuses are all about baby...yeah use that baby in all ur excuses...im so bored...and actually this list continues on....one important thing is she told to other students staying in her hse about me...like behind my back...in chinese...ok..even though i dunno the meaning but i roughly know she is talking about me...hello...n she is not talking the truth...she is a liar...skinny lifeless liar.....i cant say she is a big fat liar..she is skinny...n old...tts why its lifeless...why is there such person in this world...too evil...too wicked.... i cant even say it...ok i think im done with this problem...

my stupid laptop loses its own recovery manager...so now i cant use my computer at its best function...i cnat use the webcam...it is processing so slow....n its so hard to get help in perth....i have to call n den bla bla bla..i d not have lots of free time...why cant just they tell me where it is located...why must it be so complicated....????now i have to wait till i go back indo n bring it to a service center in indo...the HP service center not any stupid center who install fake windows vista...

trying to find a job??but where??i cant find one..i have applied at two places n they have not given me any answers....i think i have to be more brave n apply at more places....i can do this....

i guess its time for me to off my comp.i have to rest.n somehow not to think abt the problemsss...

black &&
PURPLE (:
6:38 AM

g neh lagi sebel banget!hidup g kok belakangan ini susah banget yah??napa seh??udah ada satu problem trus tambah lagi??blon beresin yg satu eh yg satu dateng lagi,berat lagi!emank yg satu ini gk menyangkut hidup g.tapi menyangkut nyokab n berarti nyangkut keluarga g....g jadi gk merasa yakin bonyok bsa biayain gw di sg lagi...no money bro!!coba aja ada hujan uang....aduh!!!!dari mana uang buat skul g di sg???buat g tgl disana...kan mahal banget!!!g pengen make sure ma nyokab kalo dy tuh udah bener udah ada uang buat g skul.di samping itu dy mesti ada uang buat bayar utangs...kalo gk kebayar gmn g mau skul dgn tenang...emank seh biasanya g tuh gk kepikiran kalo udah disana gmn susahnya nyokab n bokap disini....stress!!!

g pengen banget kurus tapi motivasi kurang..napa yah??apa gk ada temen yg bsa diajak kurus jg??yg bsa motivasiin jg....apa g coba bikin jadwal yah??g mesti ikutin tuh jadwal yg gw buat!!mesti200x.....aduh g tuh mau banget tuh kayak cwe2 korea itu...kurus tinggi...tapi bsa gk yah??tinggi sampe 170an seh yah gk mungkin lah yah...berat g aja tuh yg diturunin....ahhh!!!g pengen banget!!ok g akan berusaha...

semoga stress ini bsa ilang...dan semua masalah bsa terselesaikan.....!!

black &&
PURPLE (:
5:26 AM

arghh!!Im crazy over korea!!Their boy bands are so cute....and young...the quite new boy bands are BIG BANG(not really a band,they all sing) and FT Island.they are young.less than 20 years old.there is one of them who is the same age as mine from FT Island....they are SO CUTE!!!arghh!!...I hope I can go KOREA...hmm...study there??seoul university...haha....but must learn korean first...haha...n the living expenses are expensive.sobs.

Olevel is just next week and Im quite nervous now...im really eager to go back indo and have a rest.I am really eager to finish my olevel fast.there a lot of fun things when my olevel is done.party!!graduation day,shopping,section outing and lots more.I just have to study hard for my Olevel den....oh!!FASTER!!!1 more month...n it's done..haha....im buying a laptop soon...hehe....hp brand i think.wheee!!!hmm....I hope i can get A1 for both my maths.pass my english.I need to work hard on my sciences and humans.I really want to get at least A2 for my chem.I hope thats possible.I also want to get at least B3 for my physics and A2 for geog.Im really counting on these subjects.I do not really care for my lit and SS.I can't score...hehe....

FIGHTING!!!I CAN DO IT!!!it's only Olevel dun be scared.

confused:architecture or business??

black &&
PURPLE (:
9:53 AM

I have watched finished the drama...it was so touching and meaningful.some people said that the ending is not nice...but I think the ending is nice and not horrible.it is the best drama that I have ever watched this year....I love Lee Jun Ki...he is so good in acting...he looks so cool.at last I finished the whole 16 episodes.luv luv.....

got back some of the prelim papers today...amaths got A2.hmm...okay...bcoz I never really study for it.I never practise really hard...malay got B4.ARGHHH!! it is worse than my O's...should I retake?but even if I dunno want to retake,will the teacher allow me?bcoz I have told her tt I want to retake.I think I really need to work hard for my O's...but I feel so lazy and dun want to study...it feels so boring looking at the same thing again and again....

black &&
PURPLE (:
3:11 AM

the title means 'time of dogs and wolves'.this phrase is used as a title of a korean drama.I know it sounds weird.'time of dogs and wolves'?what the heck does that mean?is there any meaning to that phrase??YES.there is.

it is seen when dusk becomes night as the sun slowly wanes between the mountain ridges. This is the time when day and night exist together.This is the time when objects become dim to sight, and from far away, the lingering approach of a silhouette can be seen. Friend or foe. Or someone who protects me. Or just a dangerous wolf…This is the moment when both the righteous and errant paths all become crimson.This is the time when friend or foe are indistinguishable....

I have watched 14 episodes out of 16 episodes of this drama...it was very interesting and the drama portrays the meaning of the title,'L’heure entre chien et loup' .the story is about defiance,surrender,love and friendships.

Storyline
After his mother gets brutally killed by the Thai criminal syndicate, Cheongbang, Suhyeon (Lee Junki) gets adopted into NIS agent Jungho’s family. Together with Mingi (Jung Kyungho), Jungho’s son, Suhyeon becomes an NIS agent. Suhyeon had met Jiwu (Nam Sangmi) when they were younger and later has another fateful encounter with her. Together they make promises for the future. However, one day, Suhyeon leaves for an operation dealing with the Cheongbang, only to return in failure because of the resurfacing of terrible memories when he was in Thailand previously. The chief of NIS agents, Jeong, proposes to the distraught Suhyeon to infilitrate the Cheongbang. So, through Chief Jeong’s proposition, Suhyeon becomes an undercover NIS agent. Thoroughly hiding his past, Suhyeon infiltrates the Cheongbang with revenge on his mind. Under the pseudo-name of Kay, he passes through the backstreets of Bangkok…

I really like this drama.It really shows the skills and talents of the actors and actresses.When I watched it, I could link the meaning of the title to the drama itself.It has some sad scenes and I really love the action part.I really recommend this korean drama to you all.This drama is mostly action and has some gun scenes.If you want to watch this,go to this website http://www.mysoju.com/time-between-dog-and-wolf/ .till now,it has only 15 episodes uploaded with english subs. ENJOY!!(gonna watch the 15th episodes tmr,YEAY!!)

black &&
PURPLE (:
12:11 AM

its unfair...arghh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I wanna kill them all....they sucks to the core....I hate them....they are like my shits....
can They just go and die.....hate them.....cry...................

black &&
PURPLE (:
7:25 AM