my mother juz called me juz now n she told me to check out the price of the cruise...try to get the cheaper one...it's not for my family btw...it's for my uncle's family.but the impt thing she want me to noe is...I muz not spend my money on unneccesary stuffs...okay I noe that but I think I cant...let's count...she send me $3980 for 2 months and den I need to pay the guardian $2312 for monthly payment,internet and sch fee...its all for 2 months.n I'm left with $1668 den I count again...i have 2 tuition english n science n it cost me $920 for 2 mths.n im left with only $748 .n again I need to deduct $300 to change it to yen,japanese currency coz I used the yen tt my mom gave to me so I need to change it again.n im left with $448...I still need to top up my bus card,buy prepaid card and long distance card which may cost me around $130...so im left with $318 for 2 months...its for food,stationary,shopping n fun...do u think its enough...I was hoping tt I'll have extra money to buy new cellphone but NO I can't...n noe my mother expect me not to use up all the $318 for two months so that she dont need to send another $2000 for the following month....n she only got $13000 in her bank acc???thats not enough for me to finish sec4...am I going to go back indo before I finish sec4???I dun want!!!at least I finish my sec4 life here...in singapore...I dun care if I cant get the chance to further my study in singapore after sec4...but I NEED to finish my sec4 here....should i not have science tuition...coz its really expensive....it can be used for other things...I can study science by myself...if im willing to study more than anyone...during this 1 week holiday....I study study n study..maybe I can get the topics rite by myself...maybe I can seek for my friend's help...SA2 is in 1 month time...n im not studying still...why am I so lazy...what shld I do...???shld I stop my science tuition n sacrifice it so that my mother dun need to send me a lot of money here again???or shld I sacrifice the money for my own good...???wad shld I do??I dunno...if I still have tuition but im still lazy dun study by myself...I noe i'll still get very bad marks...but if I have the MORE money...I noe that I'll somehow use it n forgot abt wad my mom told me n think that I shld juz use up all the money for this month....why am I such a dumb dumb...I always do bad things...oh I feel sick of all these thinking...maybe I shld not have a science tuition ...I can ask my friends to teach me n practise more...yeah..I should do it...okay...tts my conclusion...i'll have more money n I'll give it to my guardian so tt he can keep it for me...yeah...I hope I won suffer this month....about the new handphone...maybe I shld juz forget it????but I want it...I really want new handphone...sobs...

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